Tree
The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at
painting trees.
Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand
corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting.

I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There's one
gal who I love a lot but never dare go after her.
She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good
figure, doesn't have outstanding charm.
She is just a very ordinary gal.
I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent, like
her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her
intelligence
and her fragility.
Reason for not going after her is because I felt
somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for
me.
I'm also afraid that after we are together all the
good feelings will vanish.
I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her. I felt
that if she's my gal, she will be mine ultimately & I
don't
have to give up everything just for her. The last
reason, made her accompany me for 3 years.

She watch me chase after gals, and I have make her
heart cry for 3 years.
She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very
demanding director.
When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us.
She was embarrassed but smile & say "Go on!" before
running off.
The next day, her eyes was swollen like a walnut. I
purposely didn't want to think about what causes her
to cry
but laugh at her the whole day.
When everybody go back home, she was alone crying in
the classroom. She didn't know that I returned from
soccer training
to get something. I watch her cry for an hour or so.

My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when
both of them quarreled. I know that based on her
character
she's not the type that will start off the quarrel.
But I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her

and her eyes was filled with shock. I didn't care
about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend.
The next day, she still laugh & joke with me like
nothing has ever happened. I know that she's very hurt

but she didn't know that my heart ache is as bad as
hers.

When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her
out. After going out for a day, I told her that I have
something
to tell her. She told me that coincidentally, she has
something to tell me too. I told her about my break up

and she told me about her getting together. I know
who's the guy. He has been going after her for quite a
while.
A very cute guy full of energy, lively and
interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk of
the school.
I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile &
congratulate her. When I reach home, the heart ache is
so strong
that I can't stand it. It's like a heavy weighted
stone on my chest. I couldn't breathe. Wanted to shout
but can't.
Tears rolled down I broke down & cry. How many times
have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't
acknowledge her
presence too.

During graduation, I read a sms in my hp. It was send
10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I haven't read
it since then.
It says "Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or
because Tree didn't ask her to stay"


Leaf
During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why?
Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she
has been relying
on for so long it takes a lot of courage. During the 3
years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy.
Not BGR kind
but as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend,
I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt -
Jealousy.
The sourness in the heart can't be describe by using a
lemon. It's like 100 rotten sour lemon. Sourness to
the extreme limit.
They were only together for 2 mths. When they broke
up, I hide my strong sense of happiness.
But after a mth, he got together
with another gal. I like him & I know he like me. But
why won't he pursue me? Since he love me why he
doesn't want to
make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend,
my heart would hurt. Time after time, my heart was
hurt.
I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love. If
he don't like he, why does he treat me so well. It's
beyond what
you will normally do for a friend. Liking a person is
very heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his
habits.
But his feelings towards me I can never figure out.
You can't expect me a gal to ask him right?
Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for
him, accompany him, love him. Hoping that one fine
day, he will
come & love me. It's like waiting for his phone call
every night, wanting him to send me sms. I know that
no matter
how busy he is, he will make time for me. Because of
this, I waited for him.

The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I really
want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder should I continue
waiting.
The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompany me for 3
years. Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior
begins to go after
me. Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly. From outright
rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm
willing to let
him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a
warm, gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the
tree.

In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this
wind a small footing in my heart. I know this wind
will bring
this badly battered leave far away to a better land.
Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't
ask me to stay.
Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because
Tree didn't ask her to stay


Wind
Because I like a gal called leaf. Because she's so
dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A wind
that will
blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 mth
after I transfer to the new school. I saw a petite
person looking at
my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she
will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her
friends
looking at him. When he talks with gals, there's
jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a
smile in her eyes.
Looking at her became my habit. Just like she likes to
look at him.

One day, she didn't appear. I felt something amissed.
I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of
uneasiness.
The senior was also not there as well. I went to their
classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her.

Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I
saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked
over and
smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was
surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accept the note.

The next day, she appeared & pass me a note and left.

Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her
away

It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It's because
leaf never want to leave tree

I replied her note with this statement and slowly she
started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone
calls.
I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have
this perseverance that one day I will make her like
me.
Within 4 mths, I have declared my love for her no less
than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from
the topic.
But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be
mine, I will definitely use all means to win her
over.I can't remember
how many times I have declared my love to her.
Although I know she will try to divert but I still
bear a small ray of hope.
Hoping that she will agree to me my girlfriend.

I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I
asked "what are you doing? How come you didn't want to
reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I
couldn't believe my ears.
"I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up
the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to
her place &
press her door bell.

During the moment when she opens the door. I hugged
her tightly.

Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because
Tree didn't ask her to stay.